Waiting #4

I feel JD and I are getting more and more distanced lately. He claims that he is deeply in love but somehow I felt otherwise. He doesn't seem to care about my feelings these days. Or am I too sensitive?

Once again, I'm waiting. Waiting for him to wake up so that we can head off for breakfast together which was suppose to be at 10am. But more than an hour has passed, should I wake him? ... I can't. He slept very late yesterday.

Waiting

This moment marks the 3rd fruitless wait I have in a week. First was for his sms reply, second was for him to knock off and now is for him to sleep. He should know that I'm waiting for him to sleep. All I needed was one "nite" message from him and I'll call him back immediately, just to give him a kiss which I have forgotten to.

I wonder what JD's doing now. He might be still busy with that other guy's email or he forgot to text me. Either way, I've enough waiting. Muck, JD.

My Birthday?

It's a rather lonely way to spend my birthday today. I waited till afternoon for a call from my Dad but by about 5pm I realised that my parents actually had no intentions of celebrating it. I expected the whole family to be heading out for a dinner together. But this year, there was none.

Nonetheless, I knew JD would not forget this day. He would knock off from work and he'd ask me out soon. Then the wait lasted till 9pm when I realised he too was not going to. Two of the closest people around me doesn't seem so close on this day.

ttyl

JD is a very busy person. Much to the point where I might have to wait a few hours to receive an sms reply from him. Waiting is such a torturing thing to make someone do.

All he had to do was to let me know that he's busy at the moment. It takes no more than 5 seconds to type "ttyl" or "busy", both 4 letters each only. But JD would not even spend this amount of time out of 6 hours on me. It's just as good as not having his phone beside him.

Little Hammies

The hamster that JD gave me two months ago has given birth to two extremely adorable little hamsters - a boy and a girl. It's been two weeks since her birth and the baby hamsters can now see, so she's letting them roam about freely. I haven't named them though, shall leave it to JD. For now, they're ah boy and ah girl.


ah boy feeding on mummy


ah girl roaming around the dining table.


ah boy and ah girl taking a snooze.

Pre-Big Day

My birthday's round the corner and JD had arranged a series of surprises for me over the past weekend. He had them all well-planned, one after another. Each of them were what I least expected and each of them really showed how well JD understands me. He clearly knew what I wanted.

All my past birthday celebrations were nothing compared to this year's. The past 3 days were filled with mixed feelings of laugh-cry, making it all the more sentimental and will always be in my memories. I know all of it took a lot of his time and effort amidst his busy schedule. I don't really know how to show how much I appreciated it but to love JD even more.

I'm a Loser

It always gets me happy when I see JD. No matter how caught up or stressed I am with other stuff, once I see him in person, my worries drain away naturally and instantaneously.

But lately, things are going amiss. For the past two weeks ever since anniversary, JD mood swings much too frequently. One moment we'd be laughing and next moment he'd be in a foul mood. The slightest disagreement would trigger his temper which would end up in two ways. Either he start a cold war and shoot me with constant side glances of the eye or start a quarrel and start saying hurtful things.

At first I thought he was very stressed at work due to pressure from his boss. I tolerated. Then this week, everything at work went smoothly. But for the whole of today, his face was black. He scolded me. He threaten to hit me. The worst was him giving me the side glances.

To me, contempt is the worst kind of attitude to show to a person. In my entire life, I have never once did that to anyone. Not to my family, not to my khakis, not even to people I don't get along with, simply because it is a display of utter disrespect, disregard and dislike.

I don't know why JD treats me like that these days. It's extremely torturing. Is it that I'm not doing enough as a bf? Is it that I'm still not up to his standard? Is it that JD don't love me anymore?

I don't know how to resolve the problem at all... just feel like crying right now...

Donuts!

Last week's 8 Days featured a 4-page special on donut pastries all around SG, detailed with reviews, ratings, addresses and waiting times. I have decided to get a box for JD today but alas, he was one step ahead.

Yesterday at JR's BBQ, he arrived with two boxes of Dunkin' Donuts - one for him and one for me. I managed to catch a snapshot inside one before they're all gone. Hmmm, is he reading my mind?

All Geared Up

All ready to meet JD to give him a good massage, some good food while watching dvd. But 10 minutes ago he called to say he fell sick and will be staying in camp. A little disappointed but since he's sick, I'd rather he have a good rest tonight. We'll meet up tomorrow then. Hope he gets well by then.

Diving @ Redang

Just got back from a scuba diving trip with my usual scuba khakis to Pulau Redang. The island's about 45 km off Kuala Terengganu, Malaysia, and it takes about 10 hours to get there from SG by land and sea.

Compared to previous dive locations, Redang is much more a paradise with its white powder sand beach and crystal blue waters. Local conservation efforts also ensured protection of corals and hence plentiful of marine life to admire throughout all dives.

I kinda missed JD on the first day there and made a promise to myself - that is to bring JD here during the next diving season. The soft sand is my witness.