Holiday Disrupted

My appeal to retake my failed module during the holidays has finally been approved. My new school term officially starts in two weeks' time. This time round I opted for my home faculty module - Life Science, so that it's a sure pass.

From now till then, hopefully I can finish all my freelance projects at hand, collect my payment and fly off to HK for a good holiday with JD.

It Takes Two

Something which I read off the net and never forgot:

To love someone is something.
To be loved by someone is another thing.
To be loved by someone you love is everything.

Very unexpectedly on Monday, an end point became a check point. It's like me playing FFXII. After walking for so long, to the point I'm about to switch off the console in frustration, I finally arrived at a Saving Crystal. HP and MP gets recharged back to full.

Ceiling Giving Way

Today the ceiling of the toilet in my house gave way and a huge chunk of concrete fell to the ground all of a sudden. I went to take a look and realised the metal pilings and the concrete have been corroded, most probably due to the high moisture. Luckily no one was in the toilet at that moment.

My dad took a pail while I got myself a screwdriver and started prying out more of the loose concrete to make sure they are out of harm's way. After near an hour of falling debris and with my shirt drenched in sweat, a large part of the toilet's ceiling was gone and the inner metal pilings were all clearly visible. Seems like I've got to give the town council a ring first thing Monday morning.

Flashback

So much happened over the past two weeks. They hit me one after another and I didn't had the time to type them out into words. Each of the series of events pained me a lot and each day I would try to sleep it away, so that I'll forget them the very next day. My apologies to friends whom I've missed out on good night sms-es lately.

Just now I walked past a shop selling CDs. It was playing some music infused with Buddhist chants on the hi-fi. I am not a very religious person but I stopped a moment to listen anyway. Almost instantly, everything that happened over the past few months flashed through my mind. It got me very emotional and I tried to hold back my tears.

Then the flashback stopped. A glimpse of the future crossed my mind. I found it very familiar and comforting. At that moment, everything else doesn't seem to matter anymore. The very thought lifted me from my dilemma and I finally made up my mind.

The music ended. I put my thumbs in my pocket and continued journey home. My feet felt lighter.

Fight For Love

Over the past few days, I saw a series of relationship disputes, quarrels and then breakup. It further shows that relationships are so fragile. Differences can become so amplified when two people come close to each other. Close enough that disparities become distinct and pronounced.

I think love is something that requires affection and commitment from both sides. Most importantly it must come from the heart. Absence of either and a relationship begins to break down.

While waiting for a meeting to commence this morning, I took the short spare time to do up a wallpaper called Fight For Love (which was the theme for Valentine's 2007 @ Perlini's Silver). Don't suppress love, don't lose it, fight for it.

Questions Unanswered

These 10 questions kept running through my mind while watching TV:

1) Why doesn't he show the least concern when I told him I'm having food poisoning?

2) Why is his sms reply just like any other friend I have when I told him I'm down with a fever?

3) Why does he gets tired while going out with me for lunch and so full of energy when going mahjong with his friends at night?

4) Why does he tell me he's free for the day then tell me he's having a seminar only 5 mins before it?

5) Why does he asks me to go sing karaoke the night before then tell me the next day he's going for lunch with his mum and then going out for shopping with his friend?

6) Why doesn't he message me when he goes to sleep so that I know not to wait for his call or not to wait for him to pick up my call?

7) Why doesn't he message me when he wakes up so that I know when to sms him or call him so as not to wake him?

8) Why doesn't he reply my sms or reply with a simple "busy" or "ttyl" when he's not free?

9) Why does he always like to give "dunno", "not sure", "see how" or "maybe" as an answer?

10) Why does he say I'm evil?

Last Few Happy Tots

6 hours ago, JR, JD and I attended a concert at the Singapore Repertory Theatre. A huge traffic jam along CTE which should have been anticipated landed us half an hour late for the 7pm show. Even though JD was sick, he made an effort to join me for the evening. The least I did was bring an extra pack of tissue just in case. Overall, the performance was entertaining for it's music value, but presentation and creativity needed large improvements.

Then we headed off to the field beside Riverside Point where people were flying stringless kites controlled by remote. These kites were fitted with a propellor in front and had LEDS all around. Have a bunch of them flying above the field, you get a spectacular night view that's photo worthy (I really need to remind myself to bring a camera next time but luckily JD brought one). I made a quick enquire with one of the owners and found that such kites cost S$650 each. What an expensive hobby.

We left the pit-off and continued to Maxell for dinner. JD ordered (the expected food flare):
1) Pickled Vegetable Soup
2) Pork Congee
3) Egg Toufu
4) Xiao Long Bao
5) Pork-filled Chee Chong Fan
6) Fried Dumplings
7) Pork Ribs

plus JR and my order:
8) Minced Pork Noodle
9) Fried Oysters
10)Sugar Cane Juice

There was almost no more space left on the table (once again a reminder that I forgot my camera). Though my friend was there, JD still very casually took food for me. It was awkward for me but sweet. I knew he was very thirsty and so offered him half of my drink too. I wonder if my friend suspects anything haha... All three of us then had our fills and headed home shortly.

Just Happy Tots

JD and I had lunch this afternoon at Vila'ge at the Heeren. I realised it's no longer Mache. Seems like I haven't been there for a very very long time.

We ordered:
1) Fondue Au Chocolat
2) Sashimi
3) Chicken Sausage
4) Waffle with 1 scoop Swiss Choc ice cream and mango slices
5) Cranberry Juice
6) Sparkling Apple Juice

By the time we were done, I wished I had enough stomach space for that one last brownie though, it was simply too sinfully delicious! But we were just too full and so decided to give it a miss.

Then it was neo prints. The last time I patronised one such machine was back in JC. Now these machines are so huge and so advance, and worse - they're all in Japanese! Luckily JD seems quite pro with it, so he did most of the clicking and selections. The printout is now with him, wonder if it turned out nice.

While heading towards Orchard MRT, we shopped a little inside Wisma. After much deliberation, I finally let JD buy me a pair of jeans. I managed to find one that fits and headed shortly for the cashier. However a failed attempt to snatch his credit card landed the card right in front of the cashier (*slap myself*). We left the shop and I headed to work while he went around to shop somemore.

Where's the Bday Boy?

Yesterday night at his invitation I attended his friend's bday dinner at Mt Emily's. The place is rather remote, but the ambience is very nice and cosy (apart from the flickering light behind the sofa). His friends are also a fun-loving bunch who are not at all like how he describes them to be. I had a great time and I'm glad I went.

Afterwards they decided to head for a drink at a pub and I tagged along to check the place out. I felt very uneasy and unhappy the whole time while he's there, I don't know why. But nevertheless I can see he has some very good friends there and it's been a while since he drank. The last time we walked past I could tell he missed the place a lot. So that night I let him enjoy himself while I headed off for work at the Technopreneur Park.

I too made a demand though at that time. I conclude: demand = caring.

May Day

Yesterday marked my last day in school inofficially. The last paper was manageable. Fortunately I paced myself to half an hour for each question so as to finish the paper in time. Since my CA for this module isn't very good, I can only hope that this final paper can pull me up to the passing grade.

After the paper, my chem mates and I met for dinner. We chatted at length about the paper, about the lecturers, about holiday destinations, etc. It was to be our last meal at the science canteen. I know I'm gonna miss them all.

This morning an sms from him saying that he's heading to Changi General Hospital literally made me jumped outta the bed. At the moment I reproached myself for not stopping him from heading to work while he's still recovering from a fever. It turned out however he was just accompanying a trainee, but not after flaring big time at me. What a painful way to start the holiday.